The pain was sudden and severe. The left foot, little toe and one next to it and the ball on that side, WOW, shebang, holy sh.., OMG, what the hell is this all about. Pain again, bang, pow, whoa hoss, oh damn, yeoweee Abigail, oh kalamazoo, bam. Neuropathy has reared its ugly head. Now that is an equalizer if ever there was one. Unable to bear any weight on the areas affected causes me to hobble. A hint Thanksgiving, an attack Friday and a knock down Saturday and I am back to the prescribed 3/300 mg/gabapentin per day every day. Now the condition lurks, close to the surface, rolling about. Sometimes it hits like a hammer, raising one up with a start. The drug taken as prescribed seems to manage the condition but does nothing to cure it. My problem is I continue to live in this dream world where I can quit taking pain pills and gab and so on and I have to accept that ain’t gonna happen. Whoa, don’t touch. Don’t even get near. You learn to walk in odd ways, on heels, balls, sides of your feet and sometimes you might not get to walk at all. This is all the more reason to return to the gym as soon as possible as far as I am concerned. And clearly I need to accept reality every day and stop living in that dream world that has kept me young all those years. Is that another cost levied by the animal, the end of the Adonis Effect, or AE as it is known? While everyone else sees an old fat guy I look in the mirror and see Adonis. A God. Why not this one indulgence to see me through?
The animal will not give me peace. I never know from day to day what is going to be thrown at me. It makes life more interesting than ever when physical comfort is involved. I shall not lay down to the beast. Dr. Noah assures me we have a pill for everything.
Saturday night we had our birthday for Vanessa. She got her IPod with its camera and tuner, I’m so jealous but happy for her as she continues to stumble kicking and screaming into the 21st century. As with all things she will soon be more advanced than I in the intricacies of the IPod world.. We had a great time, sharing small plates with wine at a wonderful venue along the canal in Indy and then to the brewhouse for desert and lots of laughs. Jocelyn took pictures so evidence does exist. It was a ton of fun and the finale to our great weekend holiday with the Family, oh how I miss them when they are gone. Fortunately for me I will have a couple more opportunities in the coming month to spend time with both my Daughters and Wife.
We are keeping the grand dog while J and J take a vacation for a few days starting Tuesday. It appears I will be in pretty good shape for the puppy. I will once again experience the joy of the dog inside and out and I need to be in shape for it. Sunday was football day. I did walk to the end of the cul de sac with no problem during a time when the neuropathy was toned down. This is turning into a battle. I take great care bringing weight to bear on my feet as I sometimes cannot tell where the pain is lurking if I have been sitting with my feet up. So Sunday and Monday I stayed down for the most part.
I appear to have overdone the walking and stairs etc. over the weekend. Now Tuesday early and I am back to where I was last week about this time. Vanessa suggested I have gotten worse over the past couple of weeks. I can summarize my issues in two words, incision, gas. These are my two constant pain generators and I am a wussy when it comes to pain. The return of fire feet has been like hot fudge on vanilla bean, I mean if you are going to have the pain, let’s go all the way. The bone ache in the left leg is also out there, from not taking walks several times a day. I know, I know, suck it up.
This morning since I am importing some CD’s into my I tunes library. I have the program set up on Vanessa’s machine and loaded my LP collection into my library yesterday in anticipation of her use. We went down to the gym yesterday and converted my membership from Senior Single to Senior Couple, Vanessa is now officially no longer a Curves member after all these years. She has a couple of buddies to start with and was thrilled to get her bar code card and official membership. ‘Now we can come to the gym together’ she gleefully proclaimed. ‘Oh yeah.’ He replied, ‘to watch TV’. ‘No’, he knew this was coming, ‘We can work out together!’ she was almost giddy in her tone.
‘Oh boy’ he deadpanned. A game we play. Actually I am thrilled that she has joined the gym. As with all things she will go into this head strong and it will be a great success for her I am sure, not to mention another networking opportunity. It’s only a matter of time before she takes up golf. So we are 59, I am loading up my I Tune library, we are in the same gym and I am talking about golf in November, ah the modern couple.
In keeping with the spirit my mantra today is ‘Quit Bitching and Take Pain Pills’ (as required).
hey it is aaron land that roomed with you at IU for a couple days. I hope you are doing better
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